What I Want

A question I've been spending a lot of time with lately is simply this: what is it, exactly, that I want from you?

To some extent, the answer is pretty easy: love. I want you to love me, and I want the freedom to love you. Ok so maybe that's not actually all that easy, but… even that is too simple for the reality.

Because it really depends, doesn't it? On the timescale. On how both of our lives evolve. On an infinite variety of factors.

So, here I'll try to lay out the answer, as best as I am able to articulate, for the short term, with our lives both in their current state:

I want to know you better.

I want to know what music you listen to. If you could go see whoever you wanted - whether they're still kickin' or not - next weekend, who would it be?

I want to know what your favorite food is. Any particular cuisine? Even just the simple stuff. What do you like on your pizza? Do you even eat pizza? Given the choice, would you go for nitro ice cream, or a DQ Blizzard, or something else entirely?

I want to know what you're watching. What's in your Keep Watching on Netflix? What have you tried to watch, but let it fall by the wayside?

Do you enjoy reading? Fiction? Non-fiction? Who's your favorite author? What are your favorite genres?

What do you do in your free time? What are your favorite things to do with your kids? By yourself? With the whole family?

Do you have any podcasts you listen to? Seemed like you were listening to some kind of talk thing when we were parked a couple cars apart a few weeks ago, but I didn't want to pry. Should have at least said hi, though. Still kicking myself for that. I know we've seen each other a couple of times since then, but still.

How about movies? I know we've talked about that a bit before, but only a little. I still haven't seen either of the Zombieland movies (you know, the ones with Woody Harrelson that you couldn't remember the name of?)… would love to remedy that. I can't even remember if you had seen them, or if you just wanted to…

I could go on, but… I guess my point is… I know these things and more about several of my friends, platonic all of them. I could know them about you too, couldn't I? Without crossing lines? Because I want to, so badly. Just… knowing you better is at the top of my priority list. I long for it, like nothing else. Could we talk? About these things? About anything, literally anything else you might feel up to share?

Can I know you, better?